Day 88

Arg. Its been an odd couple of weeks. I ran my 5K – I wasn’t last but I wasn’t as fast I would have liked to have been. But when you considered I ran with a bunch of college kids who are *gasp* 10 year younger than I am – I didn’t do so bad. My next 5K isn’t going to be a trail run. I plan on being on flat ground and hopefully with a group closer to my age.

I’ve been painting my bedroom too. Not the colors Aaron and I picked out before he left, but a totally different color scheme. Instead of grey I picked two shades of green – I like it and I guess all that matters until Aaron gets home. I still have the final coat of poly to put on the bedroom furniture and the light fixtures to change out too. The nice thing about staying busy is it keeps me distracted. And I guess I’m going into the “me” mode. It’s become my dog, my room, my house. Amy tells me this is a coping mechanism and she does the same thing and the tough part is going back to “we” mode when they return. I think I feel happier now, but when I realize that I feel less stressed it stresses me out and makes me rather unhappy. I feel that perhaps by accepting things as they are and finding a way to be happy despite them – I’m somehow forgetting about Aaron. I’ve added more pictures of him to my office. I must have a dozen or so now. But it’s not the same as having him closer.

I’ve been getting my weekly phone call from Aaron. Sunday morning is now my new date night. It brings a smile to my face when the phone rings. Our conversations are still awkward. I think we’re still spending more time talking about finances and the dog – but it doesn’t matter I just love being able to hear from him. He just got internet in his CHU so we should be able to chat some now. I feel rather awful the past two days – he’s messaged me but I’ve been in meetings and haven’t gotten to chat back :( hopefully that will all change soon, now that I get to go back to my normal routine.

312 days to go.