December is passing so quickly. I wish I could say I was in the Christmas spirit. And I think I am when I’m not in my house. At the store and in the office and in the car I find myself singing along to Christmas songs. Being cheerful, merry, and bright. But at home – its just a normal day. All the presents I bought are tucked under the desk in the spare room with the door closed. The ornaments are still boxed and on the shelf where I put them last year. The wreath I have been meaning to buy is still at the wreath store. But I think I am ok with all of that.
I’ve found that as well adjusted as I think I am about Aaron being gone, I still find myself missing him at times. And it seems to happen at those bizarre I-shouldn’t-tear-up-here kind of moments. For example I was finishing my Christmas shopping and I walked by the jewelry counter at Younkers and I found I was looking at men’s watches. I looked at them thinking many would make a good gift for Aaron – and I started tearing up. I was suddenly overwhelmed by feelings of missing him and not having him around for Christmas. I think it’s a good idea that I’m planning on spending Christmas with my family.
On another note – my kitties are no longer capable of making more kitties. Spooky has not shut up since Saturday. She is constantly purring, and talking, and wants all sorts of loving attention. Boo on the other hand has become very quiet and alone. I’m worried about her. She didn’t eat her food this morning and the earliest I can get her in at the vet is tomorrow afternoon. I hope she is feeling better when I get home.
Yesterday we had a blizzard. It had been forecasted all week so it wasn’t a big deal. Saturday I made sure I got all my cookie baking supplies so I had something to do while it blizzarded and Aaron gave me a snow blower lesson via MSN. We got about 9 inches of snow and everything is covered in white. The sun is shining today and it’s a mild -7 degrees. And thanks to all that extra reflective surface I ended up with a migraine this morning. Not to worry though I caught it in time. I went to the see the doc last week about a different treatment option instead of taking a fist full of ibuprofen. So I popped one of my new pills with the aura started. The head ache stopped in its tracks. The aura reduced. The side effects suck. Doc said I would likely make the nausea worse. So instead of wanting to find a dark quite place to rest because my head hurts – I want to find a soft comfy spot to curl up while my tummy hurts. Thankfully the tummy ache and almost impossible to resist urge to vomit passed after about an hour. But I guess I would take an hour of tummy ache over a day of migraine and sight, sound, and smell sensitivity.
259 days to go.
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